My story
Who am i to kid,
I´ve always been like this,
unable to fullfill my expectations
from my point of view
I´n my occupation
i reach up
and get lived up
to what is expected
I´m just me
sailing the seas and oceans
trying to forget my past
my worries
my faults
my wrong decisions
against my friends and loved
I´m so sorry…
But at least i know
that you have a nice life
and i´m only one short niche in your life
At times i find something nice
it lasts for a while
then it disappears
I constantly meet people
but unable to keep these close
or maybe i could
but me self driving them away
I´m still strong
getting stronger
getting lonelier
I´m alone
always have been
My fire is flaming, fading
sometimes almost torched
but i still have passion
Not counting on anyone
expect at my weak moments
Remember every one
almost anyway
everybody means something to me
gives my life a meaning
a reason to live on
Doesn´t matter if i´m alone
in Europe,
Brasil, India, Fidji
from port to port
i sail on
ships taking me
from place to place
But i never find my place
but i still keep on looking
Only memories
pictures
people
souveniers
friends
kisses
laughs
eternal nights…
Who really understands me…
Only one woman has come close
Probably i drew her away myself
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